Tuesday, February 22, 2005

I'm sorry once again...

Was remembering my discussion with Tiandi on the phone a few nights ago... And it makes wonder, was i in any way inadequate in kissing...

People(who has read my previous entry on "sparks during kissing") have often asked me just how sure am i that i'm a good kisser, and that none of this bad kissing experience is due to my poor kissing skills...

Well, seriously, now that i think of it, i believe that i am also a contributive factor...

Ever since my first relationship has ended, i see a real need to differentiate between love and lust... I found that in a relationship, there needs to be a balance between these 2 factors... Although in most cultures and religions, everyone ought to abstain from lust, somehow, it just have to be coupled with love whenever people use physical contact as a mean of communication with the inner self of the loving party.

I didn't realise it, and plainly, i thought maybe we could just do away totally with lust, with me ended up behaving like a "super gentleman" when kissing, which in actual fact, lacks substance, lacks soul, uncomfortable. Its a kiss, thats crippled...

As the more i tried to express my love without this important ingredient as well, literally, i'm kissing my way to doom... haha... such irony again...

Haiz... Seriously sorry for giving you another bad experience, i really didn't mean to do it... i think i felt uncomfortable doing it also...

Haiz... me and my stupid experiments... AaAaaargh, no wonder they say scorpios are very hard to understand... cos they will do so many stupid experiments which only they know what they are up to... And it'll cost them dearly... but oh well, thats life... u need to trade something off in exchange for something else...

But if i'm given a chance, i would rather not do this experiment...

Hurry time, Hurry!

alvinz blogged at 11:05 PM

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