Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Warning: maaaaadddddnnnneeeesssss ahead...Valentine's day is here, so is Friendship day...
Which is more important?
None is...
It doesn't matter the occasion, what matters and i REPEAT..., what MATTERS most is knowing whether your friends or lovers are true to you all your life!
So what if on friendship/valentine's day, we celebrate with our friends or lovers?
They changed all the time dun they?
This year u may celebrate with so and so, but next year, its go and go and then the next and the next.... the list goes on...
All this kind of special days are just bullshit!
Now before i go on, YES, i would like to satisfy your suspicions, i had a so-called "sad" day on this special day, no one to go out with, most guys wouldn't look for other guys and celebrate their friendship anyway, ya i know girls do... and they absolutely lurve it... probably comparing how many STUPID guys have already confessed to them (for all those "i-think-i-am beautiful" bitches).
And what about all those guys who have seriously thought about letting the girl they have been secretly caring for, secretly loving her and then decided to let her know about his feelings on this special day and then kenna left hanging there, or worse still, kenna rejected?
Yes, of course these girls have their rights, after all, nobody would want to be force-fed.
But these STUPID guys goes back, feeling STUPID, feeling unappreciated and a fool...
Why? Because at a certain point in time, the girl had actually misled him into thinking that he stands a chance with her, and this guy just goes on secretly caring for her, loving her... and in the end, all these things can't even be compared to a dinner with her target! Kaoz... Wonder how many girls like to do that? Its easier to reject someone than to get rejected right? Next time i wanna be the one who rejects people instead... hmph!
Was hearing my bud Guangjie about how lousy he felt inside him after he got to know that the girl whom he liked, and whom knows that he likes her, actually went out with another guy without caring less about him? Did she even wish you "happy V day"? Did she even care how you are gonna spend it? Please lor, people already got someone liao lor, she only wants to be friends (thereby implying once again that he still stands a chance?) please dun come look for our Mr nice guy here only when your target dun like you or have no time for you leh, you treat people like spare tyre ar? Get lost! (oops, guangjie wanna kill me liao)
Before he even consider turning GAY, i managed to discourage him, and told him :"Move on dude..." even though i still haven't... its definitely easier to tell someone else what to do then to do it yourself. And thats when he told me that i made him realise that true love still exist... Kaoz... how many people already told me that liao... I'm tired of hearing it again and again coming from all over the place.... How long have i hanged on liao? How many times did i kenna ram the wall liao? Uncountable... and thats when i started asking myself...
What the FUCK can True Love do or get us?
TRue love can't even get you what you want! Try telling your target about how true your love is lor, they will only give you the skeptical look... sad right?
True love true love... so many people has been talking about it, yearning for it... but how many people actually reject it when it comes looking for them? No no... they would rather try searching for it delibrately, so that it would seem more "precious"... They want it to be THEIRS... Wat? You might as well go buy yourself a trophy? U think finding true love is an achievement ar? Crazy...
Please face it people! What century is this liao? 21st century leh... now still got people going for true love ar? on top of love, we need to top up, value-add... People will like to tell you, No one can LIVE on love alone, not handsome, not rich, not innovative, not charismatic, not flirty enough... thats it, you r out! Did i mention that LOVE is just a GAME? Yeah... so many people are playing it, so many people have lost the TRUE meaning of love! If love is just a game, then i think i'll rather go become a monk liao, games are for kids....
I think guys like Guangjie and Me seriously need to follow the majority of the people and get ourselves disillusioned and join the FUCKING GAME! Yeah, at least we get FREE FUCKS if we are lucky enough, we guys shouldn't be at the losing end right? muahahaha...
Fucking hell... think about this again, is she ever gonna care about you? If the very next moment you know you are gonna die, and you know that you are still love her, and you know you wanna hug her for the one last minute of your life, would she even care? Kaoz... Ya la, she might be surprise if you called her to tell her about it, but rest assure that she will still be bringing her target along to your funeral and wun even shed a fucking tear for you... her excuse will be :"Come on la, no one should cry, just as no one deserves to be pitied..." And maybe deep down inside, she could even be cheering:"Finally got rid of you ar, now no one will disturb me and my darling liao...Muahahaha..."(extreme example) Kaoz....
The main thing is we must understand, other people do not have the obligations to accept your love, so wat if its really true love? You are never gonna receive the same from her even if she accepts you on the grounds that "She will give you a try!" Once again, what kinda fucking encouragement is that?
Right Guangjie? Come to think of it, do you think this kinda fuck-up people deserves our TRUE and UNWAVERING LOVE? A little bit too cheap for them liao right? If its really meant to be, she'll be yours, but meanwhile, lets go get a life man! So many flowers out there for us, eat and throw also nevermind mah, its just a game anyway... and i think with our capabilities(like real)... sure can get loads of them one... ha!
Like what my friend ZW used to say, "THere's no love in this world anymore!"
I'm beginning to see it this way liao... All TRUE LOVE has been DENIED, FORGOTTEN and DISPOSED of... None exist now... Fuck it! I think i'll become a monk ba, think monk also got higher status then us, "TRUE-LOVERS"...
Come on Guangjie, be strong, Lets move on...
P/S: Shiok! Vent everything on this entry. This entry might be a little vulgar, but it feels nice being able to say what i had in mind in as pure a form as can be. This applies to female "TRUE-LOVERS" as well so ladies, fret not if i've offended anyone who conscience is clear... i'm just targetting all the bad nuts, which in my case, i heard are all my buds lamenting to me about their lousy V day and being secretly in love with someone else who keeps them hanging. But seriously, i still can't walk out from my own shadow even after all these criticism, can someone give me a hand? I still love her...
alvinz blogged at 12:06 AM
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