Thursday, October 20, 2005

When its meant to be…

I've been wondering for some time now... seeing friends around me getting attached in the blink of an eye, as do bees to the flowers... sorry guys, didn't mean to feel this way, but I am indeed green with envy... I just dun understand how people can get tog so fast and yet I can't even though I've got a number of options before me... the elusive someone, where are u? or issit just that the problem lies with me? Girls just like to refer me as someone who listens to them very well, like a good buddy, a good "sister"... Is my behavior so much like a girl that I can only be a good "sister"? or issit that girls say this just to reject me indirectly? Pls be truthful with me? But of course, it doesn't mean that I have special feelings for all my sisters... And I found it especially hard to endure the kind of loneliness which when friends who are already coupled, found some special thing to do on their own, and leave u to urself... I've many friends no doubt but how long can they keep me company? This has become especially tested as more of them become attached... Given my personality and character, enduring loneliness is such an impossible task...rather ironical isn't it? My mind feels full now, my heart not fully healed from pasthurts, think i shd go for a run now...

alvinz blogged at 4:56 PM

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