Tuesday, September 26, 2006
1 week 6 daysa reassuring sms in the morning from eng choon says that he' s ok after last night's foray...
and i still seem drunk when i woke up in the morning, my head light, my eyes sleepy...
and i feel weak...
weak at heart...
no strength to do anything...
i wanna lie in bed and while my time away cos it just seems to pass so slowly,
there's nothing to look forward to...
for one whole day, i got myself carried away with youtube, my comics, my bed and msn, my home support party...
sorry i cant concentrate, my books gathering dust on my desk...
suppose to be watching banquet today and see my beloved girl, but i cant...
all cancelled...
and i'm sorry i sms you last night and just now... i cant help it...
i wanna care for you but there's a limit i can do...
this whole arrangement seems stupid...
if you cant make up your mind again, if you cant stick firm to your decision, it would still be the same and the wait will be redundant again...
toturous for both of us...
i knew... from your replies that you wanted to talk...
that you had trouble leaving me alone too...
we just miss each other so much...
but i gotta respect you...
i gotta give you the time and space to convince yourself...
i wonder if i'm over doing it...
had tried blocking you on msn for a day and i can't stand it...
gonna meet eng choon for supper later with 3 other girls of his with champions league after that...
4 out of 5 have problems...
a guy who was chasing one of them suddenly just found her incompatible and wanted to end it all without sparing a thought that the seed was already planted...
one of the girls might also end up with the same fate as me after she has fallen for a guy who just broke up and things are just getting started...
the other 2... u guys know ba...
why is everyone having this problem?
issit the season?
will the 4 of us have a clear blue sky after the storm is gone?
stay tune...
alvinz blogged at 10:12 PM
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