Thursday, September 14, 2006

Aftermath...

Aftermath...
Of wat?

She asked me to blog, so i blogged...

This is the last day i'm meeting her before her hibernation,
Might be the last day i'll ever see her again...

I had my first cable car ride in my life with her, the air was cool with a tinge of sadness...
She threw our ticket down into the dark forest of the night and we saw it flutter into the darkness... I had intend for her to keep it to remember this night but it was not to be...

We had a long chat, to sort things out, and things we did sort out, to part is to be...

I was jolted by the harsh realities, after all that we had, it had amounted to nothing, i was perhaps just lucky, to be able to lend my shoulders, to gather her tears, to keep as namesake, as a friend...

I didn't cry as i expected, i dunno why, perhaps it was just too great to show at that moment...
Does it make a diff?
I wanted it to be peaceful, i didn't want it to be troublesome...
Will it make a diff?
We left Mount Faber with a smile...

But why am i only crying now?
The hurt that i have is only too familiar to me,
i have darkness on my bed, waiting for me to embrace it, cos it is just as lonely as me...
It can never meet its other half, brightness, they can't exist in the presence of the other, yet they are made for each other... how ironical...

Ironically like us...

Darkness beckons...

When did i allow it to creep up on me?
Perhaps it is the only thing i'm left with now, and i have no choice...

I have to try...
Misery and Darkness might make a better combination afterall...

alvinz blogged at 12:45 AM

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