Monday, December 11, 2006
Dear father God, i pray for Serene...i pray to you father god,
that serene will be able to wake up on her naiveness,
that she will be able to see the truth in her eyes,
and feel the truth with her heart,
and do the correct things with the firmness of her will,
and steer clear of any hardships that will be waiting for her if she makes a wrong decision or continue in her naiveness...
i hope you can help her,
really...
bless her with my request...
so that she can be happy and stronger...
and i pray all this in jesus most precious name, Amen!
i do not understand why she just cannot see it...
she cannot see how manipulative he is when he played all those mind games with you,
how she is so used to being manipulated by him that she doesn't even realise it and continue to do his bidding whether reasonable or not,
how she has already lost the will to stand up on her own,
to judge things on her own,
to be able to make her own decisions on her own,
and remain firm and confident of her own decisions...
i was so afraid that i am biased when i made those comments about him,
but it turns out that everyone agrees,
and that her reaction is exactly that of someone who is totally under control and manipulated by him...
and i feel so helpless...
so helpless that i cant make her see this truth...
she has been controlled for so long,
a small woman for so long...
when its not her fault, it becomes her fault because he says so,
when she wants to do something for herself, she cannot because he forbids it,
when she feels something is not right and wanna correct it, she cant because he says her thinking is wrong and she should follow his thinking...
and now, when she thought she had made a correct decision,
she cant remain firm to it because she has lost the confidence in her own judgement to see her decision thru cos she will be afraid that she might be wrong...
she has became reliant on him to make decisions for her,
she's just like a zombie that responds to his calling only...
and naively,
she believes that love is about conditions...
i cant believe that she believe that if she's able to show him that she loves him truthfully,
he'll love her 10 times back!
i mean...
can love ever be measured in mathematics? on a scale?
does love comes with terms and conditions?
cant she see that he is manipulating her again?
so that means if she kiss him once he'll have to kiss her back 10 times?
this is so childish and untrue...
and only when she loves him, then he will love her issit?
hah~ what kind of love is he showing you girl?
why are you still pinning for this kind of guy who is now treating you like some love dispenser?
you put in coins then you get an amount of love for the price you pay?
this is bullshit!
did i ever ask u to love me back before i love you?
did i ever ask for your payment before i show u my care and concern?
love is priceless girl...
it has to come from within, it has to come willingly,
can you see the deception in this guy not?
i really wanna pull my hair off liao...
and i did tell you that most of the time when couples break up, they dun come back together again because usually its because its the final straw and they really can see why they shdn't be together anymore, thats why they broke up...
things are just not the same anymore,
you can never just wipe everything off and pretend nothing happened,
that things will be fresh again,
will be even better...
and a leopard can never change its spots!
and i seriously hope that if ever you guys are to patch up again,
that his meaning of loving you 10 times back is not actually to restrict or manipulate you 10 times more in severity!
you know what kind of life will that be?
i hope you will never get to experience that...
i dun understand why you are so blinded!
and my heart is aching for you,
i can see the heartbreaks coming ahead for you,
but i'm helpless in your decision,
helpless to help the person i love,
cos she dun wanna help herself...
can you just stand up on your own?!?!?
stand up and face reality?!?!?!
quitting is not always about giving up, its recognising that somethings are just not meant to be...
you understand?
you were never wrong to him in any way because we have never done anything inappropriate!
and now he is pushing all the blame to you?
pls girl... pls...
cant you see?
it is always a misfortune for someone who cannot make her own decision cos she's not living a life of her own... can you see that?
once you follow the wrong person... you are a goner...
really...
you are very childish...
i can only hope and pray that you'll be able to mature and grow up,
to see the truth just in time to prevent future heartbreaks in your life...
this is the truth that i see...
but i dun wish to tell her now...
cos i think she will just think i'm on a smearing campaign...
i seriously hope and pray that she'll not have to go thru all the heartbreaks to learn this lesson...
pls serene...
pls wake up...
i love you and i dun wish to see you sad...
alvinz blogged at 1:08 AM
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