Thursday, December 14, 2006

feeling bad...

how come it feels so bad after i blocked her?
am i not prepared to be backing out on this yet?
why not?

cos it feels as though i'm leaving her to fend for herself already...
though knowing that she's still not ready for the harsh realities...

am i being irresponsible?
did i not try hard enough?
how many times must i try before i know its enough?
i dunno...

i'm so afraid that she cant take it on her own...
who is she gonna turn to when she is upset?
when her friends did something to betray her trust or ruin her impression of them?
when her work needs help?
when she got problems to discuss?
when she needs to know more about herself, what she wants and her future?

msn has become such an integrated part of our communication...
wat can i do without it?

sigh...

there's always the phone right?
if she really needs you she can just call you right?
dun make urself sound so impt la...
maybe she already got someone to help her already leh...
so stop dreaming that you are the only one for her la...
damn it!

i just gotta do it...

for her happiness, for a greater good...

Grrr...

alvinz blogged at 12:36 AM

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