Thursday, December 21, 2006

Foolish me has done it again...

Alright alright...
i sent her my wishes...
best...
and when i tot she wun even reply me after waiting for nearly an hour,
she finally replied...
guess she was with her ex after all,
probably had a little bit of a celebration,
a chit chat session...
maybe popped the question?

well, credits to me for being the first person to wish her happy birthday thru sms...
but he is the first person to wish her verbally and face to face i guess...
wait wait....
thats me too!
i wished her face to face on the 18th right? so i'm first right?
haha
and she copied me in the way i sang my birthday song too...

sigh...
sweet memories again...

from the way she replied me,
guess she had fun,
guess she's happy...
thats good...
she should be happy...
and well...
and that makes me happy...
too...

and i had a chit chat session with my friend kai sheng,
and he was telling me all those heartbreaks that he went thru...
and he's even going through a breakup now after a r/s of 2 years...
wow...
and personally, i think he's a good guy too,
a really responsible, thoughtful and caring guy...
yet the girls before him dun cherish him too....
its funny why 2 sad people are comforting each other now...
saying encouraging things which both of us find it hard to carry out...

why good and true guys have to go thru this kind of hardships?
why dun the girls cherish us?
why do they prefer guys who is able to manipulate them or make them submit to them blindly?

it really makes me wonder, does it really pay to be good when you dun get what you want?
all i want is to cherish the girl that i love...
and get loved in return...
what's so demanding about that?

Maybe its good to be a jerk,
no strings attached...
everyone is just out to have some fun...
one night stands...
woo~
love in an instant!
or if not, we could still make love?
haha...

*slap*

i can never be what i cant be...
follies of the human heart...

Well, at least i gathered another opinion today...
Kai sheng was telling me,
he was still maintaining contact with his exes...
and when they left him for another guy,
guys which he and his friends felt was bad or not as compatible as he is with his exes,
and he felt that only time will tell whether he is right or not...
and so far, he has been right...

"Only time will tell if the r/s can work out against all the odds that only bystanders can see...
Be a gentleman, let them go..."

the girls broke up, suffered more heartaches...
all because of their own follies...
blind people...
stupid people...

"well, if things were meant to be...
when she realised who's really true and compatible with her,
she'll come back to you..."

thats what he says...

will it happen?
or will she feel too guilty to come back to me?

i dunno...
i can only hope and pray everyday for her...
even though my heart feels pain for her whenever i see the hardships lying ahead of her,
i know i can't make her see it anymore...
it's her choice to choose...
heaven or suffering...?

if only things are meant to be...

alvinz blogged at 12:34 PM

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