Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Missing her for 2 weeks... Happy today!

it has been exactly 2 weeks since we were out together...
miss her so much...

and i cant stand it anymore...
i sent an sms that did not require any reply from her

"i'm sorry for sending this to you but i just hope that you are coping well with your new job and not thinking of stupid things and still safe and sound. Good night."

And i cant believe it...
She sent me a reply!
it goes like

"i appreciate it.Thankew. still trying to get used to my new job n learning veri slowly coz me stupid. haha my colleagues r nice. u take care too. good night."

hahaha
i'm so silly...
now i just cant stop smiling at the sms,
just cant stop jumping around (shit, my knees still hurt),
just cant stop reading it over and over again!
haha

but i'm not gonna reply cos i know she needs her space,
i'm already being unfair by still sending this sms to her already,
i need to control myself...
i need to respect her...
and above all, i'm glad that she is still safe and sound, she is coping well and her colleagues are nice! haha... thanks for taking good care of her for me!

really veri veri happy!
just one small sms means so much to me girl...
so much...
woo hoo~

had a good talk with my mei mei just now over dinner,
was comforted to know that her life has become better and she and her bf are not as chaotic as before...
and so paiseh that it became my turn to unload to her my sorrows,
and i had a little discussion with her which sort of left me more encouraged...

I also dunno whether she is just trying to cheer me up or wat,
but...
she told me that all the things i've been doing for my love has been correct, true, touching and romantic...
she was even jealous of my love that she can enjoy all that i've done for her,
how she wish her bf could do things for her like this...
haha, oops...

and when i did a survey with her on whether if she was my love,
would she choose to hang on to the ex who has been with her for 5 years but who has been hurting her and the relationship is not what it was anymore, or would she be prepared to take the risk with another guy which so far, everything seems good and did all thsoe nice things for her and give her everything she wants,
she chose the new guy!
haha...

maybe she's just trying to cheer me up ba,
but she did gave an explanation on her choice,
she agreed with me that she'll still have feelings for her ex,
even now that she's currently in a 2 years relationship already, she still has feelings for her first ex, the most memorable one...
and i was like... wah lao, so long liao still got feelings ar?
then wouldn't she be like unfaithful to her current one?
then she state that it is very hard to forget the memories, but people still have to move on for a better or more compatible person to carry on their lives with... it is simply illogical to keep hanging on to something that will never bloom...

well, i hope thats the case,
i hope that she will be logical in her choice,
hope that she will know wats best for her...
hope she'll really be happy...

and i'm prepared to make the sacrifice, just so long as she is happy and will remain happy...
i believe thats true love...
isn't it?

alvinz blogged at 11:28 PM

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