Thursday, December 21, 2006

Weak!

She said she has a bad feeling about her birthday,
afraid that no one would wish her...
so i gave her a little happiness...
i let my friends know that its her birthday today...
up to them to wish her...
and they did...
haha...
hope i'm able to make her happy...
though i'm not beside her now...

but I cried again...
why why why?
i'm so weak...
i can't get up...
i wanna prevent myself from thinking about her...
but it feels like i'm killing myself...
like i'm tearing my organs away from my body...
like i'm suffocating...
cry cry cry...
does it make me feel better?
no it doesn't...

there are too many unanswered questions...

alvinz blogged at 6:06 PM

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