Wednesday, April 18, 2007

God is with me... and he says "Peace be with you"

I am always so amazed with my lord...
how he can always be there to provide for me...
how he can always be there to comfort me and give me the words that i need to hear...
how he shows his perfect love for me...
and seriously, i do feel that i might be his favourite child after all?
hahaha...
nah, i'm not fighting with pastor David here... :P

Really... seriously... amazing...
just amazing and indescribable is this feeling and encounters...
really...
one after another...
let me share it with you guys...

After what had happened on saturday,
i was seriously down...
sad... miserable... watever u call it...
and on sunday, i went to church early in the morning to seek his comfort...
really...
apart from the usual time where i spoke to him in tongues,
he blessed me with his words indirectly thru pastor chee kin who was doing the preaching that morning... always letting me know at the right time, what i needed to know...
taken from John 20:19-23

"On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said,"Peace be with you!" After he said this, he showed them his hands and side. The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the lord. Again Jesus said,"Peace be with you!As the Father has sent me, i am sending you. And with that he breathed down on them and said, "Receive the Holy spirit.If you forgive anyone his sins, they are forgiven;if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven."

The lord has come to reassure me thru pastor Chee Kin that my fears are unfounded, that i should be reminded of my faith and continue to trust in him that he will see things thru for me and grant me peace!
After hearing this, i immediately see the light already...
i knew i was really over reacting on my part...
that i had my own faults as well as i looked back on the events that had unfolded over the week...
and from that point onwards, i had peace...
peace that stems from his love,
from his reassurance that i could just leave my life in his hands...
and everything will be straighten by him...
i really just brighten up after the service...
really...

really...
i need to forgive people for their sins...
so i forgave her which leads to my phone call, and which leads to our reconcilation...
miraculously, she was also happy to see me and to be forgiven, and we had such a great time together after that...
its not nice to be angry for so long...
especially with the one u love deeply...

and guys...
i didn't share this problem with people at all...
but i was actually troubled for the past 2 months or so, by the fact that i couldn't find any attachment companies even after the application date is like way overdue...
which could ultimately lead to me having to graduate after my usual 4 years...
how sad if that were to happen right?
and that has really been giving sleepless nights really, where i could only pray for him to help me...

but i just wanna share this piece of good news...
this miraculous good news...
that i've just been accepted into Siemens this coming holidays!
Yes!
And prof Chua has decided to approve my application even though i'm handing in late becos he wants to see me graduate on time!
And i would also like to thank all those people who has helped me find jobs too, Wendi, kaishen, weiliang, Natalie, Prof Koh...
Really man, you guys are my god bless friends who has been encouraging me thruout this whole episode...
last minute, miracles can still happen...
hahaha...

Such is the power of my God...
such is the perfect love of my God...

Pastor chee kin went on to share a great story about what peace is...
he shared that once upon a time, there was a king who is searching for a painting with the theme on peace...
after many rounds of competition, it boils down to 2 pieces...
the first piece shows a magnificent scenery of the hills and mountains, clear blue sky with some white clouds, reflection of the sky on the face of the lake in the middle... wow, this is certainly the kind of place people definitely wanna escape to, to seek peace and away from the troubles of their lives...
on the contrary, the second piece shows dark clouds looming, storms, still got hills and mountains, but the greenery are whithering, there was a forest fire going on some more... but at a corner of the painting, it shows a nest of birds, the mother feeding the young chicks with worms and seeking shelter from the storm...
Which painting do you think, won the prize?
Quite contrary to many people's beliefs, it was the ugly one that won...
the rational?
Peace is not something that you can get, just by running away to some paradise where the storms are not there and you make believe urself to be free from worries and thus peaceful by being in those places...cos reality will still come back and hit you...
But peace is something, that amidst all the storms and unhappiness that is in your life, is still present in your heart, and the belief that you know you are and will be peaceful, no matter what comes your way...
I mean... this is just so profound la!
Wow...
Exactly like what God is providing for everyone of us now...
the peace that ensues amidst all the storms in our lives...
the assurance that he will always be there for us...
and friends, i have experienced all these wonderful things, how about you?

really, its just amazing...
its just amazing what God has granted me...
And with excitement, i await to see future works of him in my life...
cos i know he will never let me die...
he will make me prosper and abundant...
And God, is there any way i can show u my appreciation?
just name it!
haha...
Hope to hear from you again lord...
lord of my life...
love you!

alvinz blogged at 2:44 PM

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